my heart.
this beating in tune with the
tick of your watch.

i still find my self searching.
for no real reason.
only to find you somehow.
as if somewhere on the internet
you'll be hiding and i can say, "hi. want to eat some pudding?".
no.
just to take you.

i stared into your eyes for a few minutes just now.
everything rushed through me.
cascading down into my heart and fed
a rush so large i trembled.

it's been so long. and still.
i can feel this.

i want to talk again. i've been close.
but it shouldn't be. it can't be.
still,
it would be nice, me thinks. to hear your voice.

i had a dream a while back. last night.
and there we were.
why is this link so strong? tethered across space and hate. i can't shake loose.


i started drawing pictures again. charcoal bitches. but... i haven't had the time lately. maybe i can draw my heart exploding. or draw this ring away.